Who's House?!

So I had some crazy awesome dreams I wanted to preserve. The first dream was about Jeff living with a wealthy family in LA. It was Reverend Run's family. Run's House! I was visiting and Run was taking me around setting me up with contacts and engineering work. The gig that I landed was engineering for Mark Hoppus. Surprisingly the best part of this dream was that Rev Run exhibited the same funny and witty personality portrayed on his show "Run's House". It was awesome.

The second dream was a lot weirder. I was in an inner city community somewhat like the village from the movie "The Village". It was a primitive community with an evil leader portrayed as somewhat of a king figure. There was a large facility that were the confines of the community and venturing out of the walls was forbidden. The facility was immense and contained many rooms with different purposes for pretty much anything you could think of (think Darma Initiative). The story climaxed when the king was on a rampage and for some reason hunting me down to end my life. A friend was about to be wed and I knew the king would have mercy on him. I went to his room where he was preparing and he hid me in a floor vent. The king came around and was so blood thirsty that when he could not find me he killed the friend. I was unable to escape from the vent alone and being that the friend was the only one who knew where I was I was stuck there for a very long time. Eventually the fiance of the friend found the vent and aided my escape. I then began to search the premises for a way out. Much of the facility I had never seen before. There were doors to the outside but each was locked. I went from room to room and noticed there were little spy cameras in every room. As soon as I realized this I knew I had been seen and someone would be on their way. I tried every door in a panic and just as people were rushing down the hall after me I pushed on a door that opened and ran outside. I ran through a lawn and towards a modern city which was right outside the facility.

Man I love dreams!

Dilemma

So I don't illegally download music, nor do I often buy downloads. I like to have a physical copy. Not that it sounds better (which it does), or that a large collection of CD's looks cool displayed (it does), but only purchasing 1's and 0's just doesn't give me the fulfillment I require.

Before this story goes on I feel there is a little necessary background info needed. We are currently saving in order to move away and on to better things. Many of you belong to a certain facebook group whose goal is to have me quit my current job. Well saving is the only way that's going to happen and so every dollar we spend right now we try to take account for. So CD purchases only happen when the need out-ways the guilt.

Ok, on with the story. I was recently made aware of deal on Amazon which offers a few digital albums at an incredibly low price of $5. I was reluctant at first, but a persuasive cousin and dollar amount convinced me. I don't think there would have been anything to regret if it were about any other album, but it just so happens that I bought a digital copy of perhaps the greatest album ever recorded. It's definitely in the top 10 or very possibly top 5. The album is "Mandala" by RX Bandits. There are many other albums I would be fine only owning the digital copy of, but I just feel that I need to obtain a physical piece of this amazing album. So thank you Amazon, Jeff, and the low price of $5, you have put me in quite the dilemma.

http://www.fuel.tv/music?bcpid=5807873001&bclid=1396506072&bctid=53684241001

Top Ten Rainy Day Songs

Messes of Men - mewithoutyou - Brother, Sister
The Boy Who Destroyed The World - AFI - All Hallows EP
The Funeral - Band of Horses -
I Don't Keep With Liars Anymore - The Bled - Found In The Flood
Eye of the storm - Blindside - About A Burning Fire
Down - Blink 182 - Blink 182
There Is - Box Car Racer - Box Car Racer
November Rain - Guns N' Roses - Use You Illusion
Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson - In Between Dreams
Helena - My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge

No particular order and subject to change without notice. But seriously, get all these songs and listen to them on a rainy day. This order is actually a really good listening order. Also, as a rainy day go to, put on some Norah Jones. You can't go wrong.

It sucks how you can't choose your personality sometimes. You can definitely make changes to how you act and think, but you can't control what you like or dislike or the things you hold to value. In that area, you kind of have to just hold on and hope that you don't end up doing something idiotic. I have not had much luck in this area I feel. It seems I am always thinking poorly of my past self for making bad decisions. I guess I never put much thought into it, but I never thought I would come to shake my head at the naive younger self I was. I know there are several examples if I wanted to put myself through thinking about it but one example has come up recently. I was going through a box of random stuff when I came across my graduation cap from high school. I had painted a "straight edge" symbol on the top. It's not that big of a deal... but that the heck!? Why did I think it would be cool to advertise a moral code way of life based in the underground punk scene? If you would have asked me if I was straight edge I would have said, "no, but I don't drink, do drugs, or have pre-marital sex anyway". I just thought it would be cool for some reason. What a dork.

Anyway, it's things like that that make me afraid to do anything for fear that I'll regret it later. It's a weird concept to think about things before you do them with the intention to evaluate how long you thing this particular thing will be cool to you. I think doing this would automatically make it uncool. I guess you just have to go for it, do what you know is right, and don't dwell in the past. I just wish I could see my future self so that I know what he'd approve of me doing now.

On another subject, but something that I'll probably shake my head at myself later for, I built a ski rail out of wood and PVC. I watched a couple youtube videos of people making similar rails, drew up some plans, and built it with my dad. It's pretty sweet looking, but I have yet to use it. It requires a trip up the mountain with my dad's truck to bring down a bed full of snow. I haven't had this kind of time recently and so it sits taunting me. I might not get to hit it until next winter and this makes me sad. I'm in such a panic to get better at skiing that I feel like every moment I'm not doing something to progress is a waste I can't afford. Also, youtube videos pump me up and crush me at the same time. It is very emotional.

The Logic of Crocodiles

Hello blog people.

This blog is about a few things.
1. I've seen a few good movies as of late and I felt it was blog worthy to write about them. One of the movies was Yes Man. I wasn't sure if it would be as funny as Carey's previous movies, but it did not disappoint. I think I was crying when they were at the chicken slaughter house. I also just watched The Thirteenth Floor. This is one of my favorite movies. It's like a sci-fi who done it with a butt-load of moral tension. If you have not seen either of these movies then I suggest you plan in a good block of nothing into your schedule and rent both.

2. I have been exercising with the wife lately. We've been walking a lot. We run this block by our house which is one mile exactly but with some slight inclination change-ups. There really is no point here, I just thought it should be recorded and documented somewhere.

3. I have started listening to Every Time I Die a lot again lately and not sure why I stopped for so long. It's probably because that's all I listened to in Arizona. They are however exquisite. It is just really fun music all around. Check out this video... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MivClrvXCpM.
And then check this out... http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/82106/

4. I think one of the worst things about sin is those painful bumps that you get on your tongue. I bet before sin they didn't get those. What the heck are they anyway. If you know please let me know. If I could avoid getting them I would do all I could.

5. I'm seeing Death Cab tonight and it should make for quite a delightful evening.

Peace

Prospective pries her once weighty eyes and it gives you wings

So I've recently had a change of heart. I've decided that I want to pursue a career in skiing. It might be ridiculous, stupid, unattainable, and it definitely scares the crap out of me, but that's what's been on my mind and in my heart lately. I will always have a love for music and will continue to wish I was playing in a band. I will even try to get jobs that have to do with the audio education I am in debt for while trying to pursue this new passion. It's actually not even new. I've always had a passion for skiing. For some reason I just didn't pursue it like I should have. I should be skiing pro by now but I wasted time doing I don't know what and now I have to make up for lost time. I will need to hit the gym pretty hard all summer and ski as much as I can next winter. I really want to go to this freestyle summer camp but it is a little out of price range at the moment. What's really awesome is that my wife doesn't hate me for coming to this realization after spending so much time and money going to school. She actually is very supportive. This is all very sudden but I am determined. I think the moral here is that when you have a passion in your life or something that you're good at, pursue it and make it your life no matter what. Part of the reason I never pursued skiing as a serious career is that I thought that it wasn't acceptable. I thought people would think I was being a bum and wasting my life. That was a huge mistake. Don't let people decide what your life should look like. Anyway, check out a little Marmot terrain park session I did the other day. It's nothing awesome but I feel good about it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-QeJxl52oro

Then check out the level I'm trying to get to. I have a bit of work to do. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8edWI-ocbA

This video almost alone has inspired me to do this. The skier is Sammy Carlson and he's like 2 or 3 years younger than me. He gets free gear and paid to travel around and do awesome stuff like this. It pumps me up more than anything.

Cold and all alone

Have you seen the movie Into the Wild? If you haven't then you probably should. It's pretty darn good. Anyway, a major theme of the movie is basically that it's really hard to be happy when you're all alone. Of course there are times when alone time is good and needed, but if you're alone too much you lose sight of what happiness even is. Where's your inspiration or what do you have to compare your happiness with. I don't want to ruin the movie, but the last thing that the character writes in his journal is: "Happiness only real when shared".
I think I've experienced a little of this these past few weeks. My wife and I have a pretty busy schedule which allows about 45 minutes to an hour on weeknights, and about half the weekend to actually spend time together. The worst part though has been Fridays. Friday is the only day where I actually have free time during the day all to myself before I go to work at night (right as Rach gets off). Therefore Friday has become my ski day. I could probably put effort into it and find someone to ski with, but I always end up skiing by myself. Besides being a little dangerous, it's just not as fun as it could be. Take for instance today. Today was one of the best days in my skiing career. I have had a hard time getting myself to slide rails and today I was hitting them with a high success rate. I was also hitting a big jump that a lot of people were sitting above and talking about being scared to hit. Not only did the accomplishments make it a good day, but it was just an all around good ski day. Like boosting out of my favorite natural cliff quarter pipe, and cutting through the trees and stuff. It was sunny and everything; just a perfect day. It was perfect except for the fact that I enjoyed it all by myself. It put a huge damper on it and I think it's because of the aforementioned philosophy.
Sorry for the bummer blog. Even the title contains so much pain in so many different ways. I'm really not that depressed (I don't think). I just want someone to ski with.